Saturday, March 4, 2017

Scary News

                                                  Today I received scary news.

Numb,  I stare blankly at random shadows flickering against my shades in the fading afternoon sun. A moment ago, everything was normal.....but now....

I swallow deeply as if this will somehow help me to absorb the unwanted information. My heart plunges into the pit of my stomach, then lodges its way into my throat, I'm nauseous.

I search for an reasonable response, but "Jesus" is all I can manage.

I can't face her, or even talk to her. I can't imagine my life without her in it. I know my fear is irrational and and selfish and.... I'm angered by it. So.....

I breathe deeply, and do the only thing I know to do.


Dear God, please help me to overcome my fear, and find strength to be the person she will need me to be. 


  1. I can't do anything but pray for you and for her right now after reading this. This slice could represent a moment for a million different people.

  2. Is this current or is this from your recent loss of your mom? I hope you're not going through any more horrible've had more than enough for one person! I do appreciate the way you've written this. Concise - no need for lots of words to get your point across. It's all there - no more needed. xoxo

  3. Oh Darlene, I hope everything is okay. You are in my prayers.