Today I received scary news.
I swallow deeply as if this will somehow help me to absorb the unwanted information. My heart plunges into the pit of my stomach, then lodges its way into my throat, I'm nauseous.
I search for an reasonable response, but "Jesus" is all I can manage.
I can't face her, or even talk to her. I can't imagine my life without her in it. I know my fear is irrational and and selfish and.... I'm angered by it. So.....
I breathe deeply, and do the only thing I know to do.
Dear God, please help me to overcome my fear, and find strength to be the person she will need me to be.