I've been working diligently on pieces for a couple of days, and still kind find one good enough to be taken out of "the posts I may never finish" category.
My head is in a funny place, and when this happens, nothing seems to fit.
Are my pieces too long? Too emotional? Too boring?
Am I seeking too much approval?
Am I expecting too much of myself? Am I too critical?
Do I even belong here?
Today, probably not!
My creativity is tapped, my inspiration exhausted
Today, I should just forget about my blog and visit facebook
It know its kind of sad and very superficial, but when my self esteem needs a boost, facebook is where I go.
It's a place where my writing doesn't matter. I don't have to "think" about the content of my writing, and that makes things easy. Deep or frivolous, serious, or funny, it always comes down to one thing.
The "like" button.
Instant gratification, that's what I'm talking about!. Depending on the post, I can recieve fifty or more "likes" within a matter of hours, and while it's only fantasy, it sometimes feels good to revel in moments of percieved popularity.
The truth is, I love my blog.
In fact, I love it way more than I'll ever love facebook.
But on days like this, when I'm tired and vulnerable,
and there is no confidence to be found
I wish my blog had a "like" button.